Break

勇気出して！

2011-10-26T00:25:00.000+08:00

幸せの欠片を探して，
全部繋げってみよう．．．

Restless....

2011-10-23T10:50:00.000+08:00

On the road, everyone is in the midst of a journey
In order to encounter their true selves
Let’s keep on walking for now, for We’re all travelers
Everything’s spreading out right in front of my eyes
Just when will the 9 paths ever overlap
The road will probably change to continue into a new dawn
Witness to it

~Journey through the Decade~

The far away sky,

2011-10-07T20:16:00.000+08:00

Everybody is growing up.. Leaving me behind..
I wish I could soar with all of you into the bright future...
But here I am... Feeling left out, taken lightly of...
I might not be as amazing as all of you, but don't get me wrong..
That doesn't mean you can look down on me...
Without needing any of your sympathy, I will one day stand on the same stage as you.
Playing a role I myself is proud of. Holding my head as high as I can.
I believe in my own path even if it means I have to let go of everything else.
So don't underestimate me.. Just because I'm not as good as you.
I have my own ways...
Some day, I'll crush you.

Live Brocast!! Why? Randomness is Awesome..

2011-07-27T01:51:00.000+08:00

You know when sometimes when ur in a really shitty situation and u dont feel like doing anything at all or more like u have given up on urself... that's how it is right now with me...

Despite the fact that im in the bad mood, which isn't really any reason not to study for tomorrow's test... ~~not like i dont want to k, i cant...~~

And so here i am, watching FF Advent Children for some reason.. and pausing every half an effing second to admire every single strand of gorgeous hair.. which is unsurprisingly enjoyable. to me at least, and im quite sure that most of us agree with that...

So, that's my only entertainment for the day, if u exclude the reading part during meal time.. which in fact isnt much fun since i only have two hands and craving for a third one to hold the book still...

That's pretty much what's left of my school life.. Sad huh... i spend most of my time worrying about this and that... and what pisses me off is that im not even worrying about myself.. family problems are keeping my mind quite busy during lessons.. The criticizing from beside me isn't helping at all, in fact its really annoying coz every single move i make is apparently either stupid or joke-able for her.. well, a relieve that im still categorize as a humorous person.

What to do? Life sucks.. well at least that part of life sucks.. "Take a break and look around, you'll realize the world is much more beautiful than you thought" Right.. and get run over by a tricycle... Why tricycle u ask? coz i dont wanna die just yet... Wonder if there's any express train for me to board on..

I bet ranting and whining about stuff like these is the only thing that proves im still a healthy teenager. Good to know! =,=

Drawing is so much fun.. But he next thing u know, 4 hours had passed and u have to slap yourself awake to study... how much more do you want of me dear mr. time.. sigh..

Hesitation

2011-07-18T01:43:00.001+08:00

Trembling.. i didn't raise my voice.. i didn't make use of the pen knife 3 foot away from me... i fought back...with my bare hands trying to conflict minimum injuries as possible... but that's not what he thought when he send a strong punch towards my face which obviously missed me or i would not be sitting here typing all these rubbish...

i always thought im different from my crowd, following my older brother's footstep, i became a single individual without getting influnced the flow of the crowd, i only pay attention and like what i think is worth my attention... im not the studious type and from everyone's point of view, two of my brothers, both younger and older have more potential in life than me...

my older brother has talents everybody would acknowledge, he's just being lazy which is the only barrier that blocks in his path..

my younger brother can understand and absorb whatever he's taught really quick and well, he's a fast learner..

but me, im not even half of my brothers ability wise.. i always wondered why they who have such great gifts wont work hard for what they have and put good use to it... Im now struggling just to stay among the lines of average.. my grades are always either average or below average... i need double the time ppl use to actually understand things... i need double the time to finish anything.. what's left of me is my pride and only that i wont lose, i'll keep my head held high and i wont let anyone look down on me... i tried my best at most of the things, although sometimes in the end, others ruin it for me which really cant be helped like how one of my artworks for a competition got torn when i was just about to apply the finishing touch.. i end up withdrawing from the contest which i regret even till now... even people like me would want to work hard and achieve furthur and better goals...

But why? i dont understand... why does ppl with outstanding abilities wont think for themselves and tend to let his other friends think for him? i have never once admitted it out loud that he's better than me, i dont tend to let him look down on me just yet, as a sister, i have my pride.. but as a sister, i failed to pass on what i've learned to him like what my older brother did to me.. he's turned into a beast that would most probably someday take on drugs... i wish the cause of that is due to puberty when his rebellion state is still in charge of his mentality... Still a brat, what ppl say.. but if this keeps up, he wont be able to climb up from the disasters he's committed and most likely sink even deeper... we've tried all we can... but all he has for friends are brats...

one more thing that i can boast about myself, is that i can stay myself no matter where i go or who i socialize with... which was what i learned from by older brother... but that wasn't my younger brother's case.. he'll turn into a different person in different environments... he's not someone i can call a family now.. even with abilities like his, he's turned into a scum which even ppl like me wont acknowledge... i never understand why ppl from our age can be so stupid and naive, and now i somehow could understand.. he's the kind of being i hated most.. succumbed to lusts and temptation easily without even thinking twice whether its right or wrong and of the consequences...

wonder what is there left for me to do to make things right again... guess its not within our strength to do anything else, he's got to get over it himself or else there wont be a turning back anymore..

MAD

2011-07-17T17:07:00.000+08:00

Some how i feel really really irritated now.. Its like all the bad memories and stress came gushing out of no where filling my head with negative thoughts.. my head's going to break from all this.. im mentally going mad right now... different emotions came out all at once.. i feel rage, uncontrollable anger, i feel sad, depressed, annoyed... and in the end having a headache... wonder if i've already gone crazy..

記憶．．．

2011-07-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

どんな人にも，過去がある。
守れなかった　後悔，
救えなかった　絶望。
悲しい記憶を忘れられなら，
人は，本当に幸せになれるのかな．．．

asdfghjk

2011-06-09T18:00:00.000+08:00

うわぁ!!　どうしよ??　時間がない．．．間に合わないかも．．．
全然やる気がないもん．．．
誰が??!!　助けて!!

Getting worse...

2011-06-03T18:06:00.000+08:00

What am i gonna do.. sigh.. nothing's getting any better...

Life...? Don't joke with me..

2011-06-02T00:20:00.001+08:00

This is getting really ridiculous..
How i wish everything's not true.. The final decision is next week..
What will everyone think if the reason behind it is such a stupid thing..
Im afraid... Really.. This is not something i can fix anymore...
I dont know what to do.. I never do get the things i wanted and instead im destroying it...
It's always like that... That's why i never asked for anything...
Reaching out to something seems so impossible now...
Maybe its true after all, u'll never get ur dreams to come true if u speak it out loud...
Or maybe it only does apply to me..
Please dont do this.. This is not happening.. I dont want it this way!!!!
There should be other ways out of it.. please dont do this...

Stupid C-drive

2011-05-06T18:09:00.000+08:00

i hate my C drive!!! god damn it!! now it says that the disk space is 0mb and i cant do shit about it!!
i know my math and i dont think (4+3+2)gb+(a few several mb more) would equal to 39 gb... and i have NOTHING to remove already... now i cant download anything!! After such a long time neglecting my Arashi fandom and now it doesnt let me download it after seeing the worth-a-nosebleed screenshots of Nino's smexy half naked body!! Im soo frustrated right now!!! and sad... im gonna rub salt on my eyes and cry myself to sleep!!

人渣....

2011-03-14T21:10:00.000+08:00

I really had enough...
Sometimes that hatred... it could drive me crazy... it's been over for so long but i still can't forget...
Saying shit about moving to Australia.. Being all emo about it, "ppl will still be happy even without me here..."
I really can't stand her.. She's just a ungrateful jerk, she only want ppl to pitty her.. Want to let everybody know that she's the most unfortunate person in the world and want ppl to care for her..
Why cant anybody see through that?? She's not worth it.. She wants attention... She wont give a damn about u if ur not what she's looking for... That's what she really is..
Some might say this is prejudice but this is not...
She wont care for anyone, she wants it the other way round..
She's not a true friend... and never will learn to be
Just the sight of her face makes me wanna spit at her...
Her tears is her only weapon... and that's all that is to her...
Betrayal.. She wont feel sorry for what she had done either..
Give me a chance and i will kill her...
The world is better off without junk like her...
Stop giving everybody the teary emo shit... others might give in but not me..
Shut the fucking hell up and get going...
good for nothing piece of crap..

Kagamine Ren/Len

2011-03-14T00:38:00.000+08:00

Finally finished it...
Gave up on the previous one and redrew the whole thing...

Its just so depressing...
The news about the earthquake is everywhere...
Japan... TT^TT
I cant stop feeling worried about it..
and almost everything reminds me of Japan...
everything in my computer, everything around my computer...
*sigh*...
Let's all pray for them...

Rain...

2011-03-06T12:58:00.000+08:00

This time its not Ohno's Rain... lol..
Miyano Mamoru... its been a long time since i've screamed over his songs or anime chara with his voice..
His first album.. 「Break」... Finally decided to download it... coz i miss him ^^ alot..
Although i've heard every song in it but i didnt catch a strong impression... coz i didnt actually LISTEN to them...
kinda feel sorry though.. coz if i really did LISTEN to them that time i would have realize how amazing they are..
one of them is called "Rain" and its ... >^< i dont even know how to describe it...
Wonder why all the song with the title "Rain" is always nice.. i mean the songs i've heard before anyway...
Like Ohno's Rain, Yui's Rain, now Mamo's Rain.. lol...
i fell in love over again with Mamo.. lol...

Btw, Exam's coming... its tomorrow in fact.. uh.. gotta study.. but at least i have mamo's song playing while im studying.. heh..

Pictures

2011-03-03T22:21:00.000+08:00

Just happen to have a camera with me and took some random pictures of flowers...

Lotus

2011-02-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

Arashi's 35th Single is out!!!!
[Lotus] Theme song for Aiba's new drama　「バーテンダ」
Saw preveiws of the PV here and there...
Arashi in WHITE coxtumes from head to toe!!
>< at least that's what i saw...
I was wondering when they'd come out with songs like Truth... coz it was like the BEST song of 2008..
Still one of my favs song in my playlist...
*Adding Lotus into playlist*
*song plays* 願いを今この手に　真実を求めて～　
*squeals><*
Ohno's part was amazing...

Ok... no more fangirling... homework.. homework...

Did i mention that the third song in this single is unexpectedly good?
Despite the wierd name... "Boom Boom"
lol..

ok ok... i'll stop...

Bed time story... (Chapter one)

2011-02-22T03:42:00.001+08:00

This was from quite a while ago... When i was forced to write a bed time story for someone... But i prefer writing it than telling it... When i reread this... oh god... i really do need to get serious on improving my English... *sigh*

Long long time ago, there was a small peaceful village quite distant from the main kingdom ruled by the king.
It was a nameless village as it was small and was hidden beyong the thick woods. There was a living legend that evil orges who lived in that particular woods will kiddnap anyone who came too near to it. But never did they know that the creatures who lived beyond it were just the most beautiful thing anyone could imagine.

Back then everything was a mess, humans are constantly fighting against each other and soon enough, a cruel war broke out. During the horrible fights, a scruffy little boy was separated with his brother, the boy was told to head straight into the woods until he no longer hears the sound of clashing swords and then wait for him there. The young boy was barely twevle as he ran bare footed into the woods. He ran and ran, hoping to find someone for help. He ran as far as his legs could take him but still, the noise wouldn't cease to stop. He doesn't dare to slow down at all, 'Just a few more steps to go... a little further.' he keep telling himself, ignoring the fact that his legs were screaming in pain.

In the split second, he thought he went deaf. But that's not it. He couldn't believe his ears. The sound was instantly cut but instead replaced by mother nature's song. The birds chirping in harmony with the crickets's rhythm and the soft croak of toads and frogs. He finally stopped and stood still, gasping for breath. He could hear the tune of buzzing insects wings joining the melody with the rufling leaves under his feet and above him. He was exhausted, not even aware of the tears that was trickling down his grimy cheeks and scratches as well as wounds all over his limbs.

The young boy was relieved, and looked back, he wouldn't have thought that he actually made it so far. He was totally out of breath, his legs were trembling. Suddenly, he heard ruffling leaves from dark shadows of bushes and trees infront of him. he saw a tall figure pushing away the vines danggling from the trees that's blocking it's way. The creature was heading towards him, stretching out both of its long slender arm with palms opened to show he meant no harm. The young boy wasn't afriad, in fact, he felt somewhat attracted to it. The creature was giving out a soothing aura which made him felt at ease. The boy tried to speak but he wasn't able to. He was too tired to do anything eles but breathe. He felt dizzy and soon after that, everything went pitch black, the last thing he saw was the slim fingers of the creature reaching out for him, he barely had a glimpse of the creature and all he knew was that it was the most gorgeous thing he had ever seen.

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But u see, its a BED TIME STORY... It has to be children-friendly right? Or not the boy would have got eaten by the "creature"...

Last Day

2011-02-07T00:44:00.000+08:00

Last day of Chinese New Year holiday ne..
and i just finished Haikei Chichiue sama...
God... there wasnt an ending...
But i love it... Kuroki Meisa is just as cool as ever... Plus spaced out Nino.. lol..
And it was a nice drama... Its peaceful, simple and quiet.. the scenery is just plain amazing...
Actually i've known this drama for a long time ago... not sure where i heard from it..
I think it was even before i encountered Arashi...
Only last week i remembered when i saw the drama title... not really remembered, just thought it was familiar...
And then... wow... i dont even know how to describe that feeling...

Even if...

2011-01-20T00:12:00.000+08:00

Two weeks have passed...
At school... finally able to feel like a normal student...
Finally able to feel a bit like myself...
Finally able to socialize with everyone, able to talk freely...
I actually felt better...
But that's just how it is when there's classmates and school work keeping me busy...
The guilt didnt go away at all...
I don't wish for it to go away, since im the one who is making everyone suffer because of my recklessness...
Maybe when time passes, it'll not be as bad, but it'll never disappear...
Last year wasn't pleasant at all..
But yet, a new year has arrived...
Wonder if things will get better... just a bit is enough for me..
Even just a bit... im grateful..
I just want everything to be alright again...
So please..

Merry Christmas

2010-12-25T04:15:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas evrybody!!
Heh, im not celebrating it...staying in my room and countdown by myself... as usual...
but this year, i've got presents!! although i didnt give out any...feeling a bit guilty.. no, alot...
Its the thing i wanted alot too... ><
Hatenai Sora!! gah, watched it yesterday, it was awesome!!
Although Ohno's hair look abit weird, but Matsujun says its cute... lol..
And the Arashi cup... its so cute.. and im NOT gonna use it!! not even when i ran out of cups!! (not sure how that would happen)
And lots of other weird stuff though... although it did take quite sometime to get them unwrapped... nicely ofcourse...i NEVER rip off wrapping papers, cant bring myself to do it...
I mean ppl put so much effort in wrapping it right? ripping it off like that is just wrong....
Thank you guys, for giving me such wonderful presents...

Another Day

2010-11-11T22:11:00.000+08:00

Another day after the exam...

Yesterday, Japanese students came to our school!!!

We got 3 of them in our class but too bad we only hv less than 10 mins to talk...

they came in late and we only have one period, and after introducing themselves we only have about 10 mins...

Then when they got seated, evrybody gather around them..

Good thing they understand English.. ahaha..

The one sitting near me is called Mayu and the other two is Rina and Rikako...

Mayu and Rina are in the basketball team and when we went down to watch the match during recess...its AMAZING!!!

Our school's girl's team lost... lol.. but who cares!! i would want the japanese to win anyway...

And Rikako is in the volleyball team... She's TALL!! But i didnt get to see the match coz recess is over...

Me and a few classmates forgot the time coz the basketball match is too interesting...

Then we're like "What is the next period?" and one of them say its chinese...

We didnt realize the crowd was obviously much lesser so we had to rush back to class...

We're really late but we got in from the back door and the teacher didnt realize a thing coz the class is to noisy and evrybody's walking evrywhere...

Lucky~

Knowing that, we would hv stayed downstairs longer...

We still watch it from the window but they're like tiny ants...

There's also a bunch of good-looking guys there...

Its pretty easy to find them, As long as u see a group of girls chattering their heads off or sqealing real loud, yea, that's the spot, right in the middle of the group of those annoying girls...

But i didnt get to see any of them coz im more interested in the basketball match....lol..

But somehow i regret not able to at least get to see one coz according to evryone, even the guys, they're really good looking...

Especially the helf japanese half german twins...

Heard it from my friend tht they're like hikaru and kaoru... lol..

Guess i'll hv to search for their photos...

Riun if u want them i can send them to u... but i only hv some of them... i didnt hv a camera so i hv to get it from others... but i'll send u whatever i have..

Lately

2010-10-29T15:25:00.000+08:00

Lately i've been taking on painting...

i mean im not really good with it but there's a few work im quite satisfied with....

But its real troublesome... coz when i dont feel like it anythng i draw looks crappy...

Actually, why did i take up painting again? It's quite funny if i say it out loud...

There's this kid, 12 year old kid, that's i think is almost good at EVERYTHING.

She's great at anything related to art... which i think its a really amazing for a 12 year old kid...

That's why im not loosing to her!! (But i think i already am...wait no... I am indeed the loosing one...)

I actually know her (i guess i do, knew her name but i didnt talk to her before)

but i haven't got the chance to meet her yet...

Looking forward to it but i dont know when will we get to meet...

Soon i guess...

Hope so!

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Hey Riun!!! i miss u sooo much!!!

Shizuka na Yoru ni....

2010-09-26T17:33:00.000+08:00

Strolling along the quiet streets during this cold winter night.

The voice from before has been in my head for quite some time.

Will it go away? Or does it stay?

I want it to stay, but i want it away too...

It brings back too much pain, but it's also a part of me that i don't want to forget.

What should i do?

The quiet night is calming, but it's not enough.

You're just right infront of me but why can't i even touch you even if i reach out my hand which seems like its only a millimeter away from yours?

The simple smile you've gave me but i feel no warmth in it.

Is that the smile that you make to deceive me to fall towards you?

Is that the smile that you make to make me back away from you?

You won't answer any of my questions but only leave me there on my own.

At first you seem nice, but in the end when im addicted to you, you seem so cruel.

But i can't take my eyes away from you, it hurts, but i cant forget the kind memories you left with me.

I can't be honest with myself,

I want to be with you but i cant.

I dont want to be with you but i have to.

Which is it?

What will tomorrow be?

Should i just follow your pace or stop?

Should i stop the time or continue this journey?

What will i be today if i haven't met you in the first place?

What exactly is the thing i want to protect?

If i go along with you now, will i look forward to the 'future' you're giving me?

Will this quiet night give me the answers?

When i close my eyes, you appear.

Should i search for you or just wait here for you to come?

Who eles will it be if it's not you?

Is this the route to go further away from you or closer to you?

All this questions i've been asking myself, when am i getting my answers?

I'll wait and also search for it.

I can't stand this overlapping feeling.

I'll be free once i awaken from this dream.

then I'll have no worries, no happiness, no pain, no feelings, more importantly no more dreams.

Whats next after im free? It'll be nothing at all.

So for now, my dreams will continue until the day i awaken....

The day evrything ends until i fall into a slumber again.

I dont have a title for this.

2010-08-23T19:53:00.000+08:00

I had a dream, probably the most simple, and the stupidest dream i ever had...
i dreamt about some guy who took my surroundings away from me and i was standing there in a blank space. Yes, it's that short, probably only took me 3 mins to dream that, or less...
Waking up feeling weird, shook my head and got off bed.
Didnt know what it meant and and definately don't want to think about it. I dont like thinking.
When i got downstairs, i saw Nat-chan watching the news with Coffee on her lap while brushing his fur in the living room. Coffee never do like Nat-chan, he was just acting nice because i told him to.
The minute he saw me coming down from the stairs, he sprang accross the living room towards me, leaving Nat-chan there shouting at him for startling her, then followed me to the kitchen.
only then when i realized it was only 8 in the morning, no wonder Nat-chan is watching the news. Normally i'd wake up in the afternoon during summer break. Stupid dream.
No use going back to sleep is there.
Milk, milk, milk, milk... Lucky! Nat-chan didnt finish it after all.
Fresh milk in the morning saikou!!
Walking back to the living room with a bottle of milk and Coffee brushing against my leg.
'What's on the news?'
'Nah, not much, just...wait! Is THAT my milk?'
'Yep..'
'YOU!!!'
'Me.'
'DAMN!"
'Yay...'
'Meow..'
Coffee doesnt like us quarrelling over milk, but he does think its amusing.
'I told you not to touch my milk!! i even wrote my name on it!!'
'Yea, I'd write my name on the toothbrush too.'
'You WHAT?!!'
'I'd write my name....'
Nat-chan rushed upstairs to her room to check on her toothbrush, leaving the tv control totally unguarded.
Silly girl, why would i use her toothbrush when i have mine, only Coffee would.
'Meow!!'
'Ok Ok, Coffee wont.'
The news was broadcasting something about political stuff. Big deal. Don't understand why they even bother to watch it or put it on tv. It's dull.
Nat-chan is coming downstairs, her footsteps are always so heavy. angry or not, you can't tell.
'Good thing you didn't use it, or eles i'd have to buy a new one again, i just changed it 2 days ago.'
'I told you i didnt do it.'
'You did not!'
'I did. Coffee heard it.'
'No he did not.'
'There's somebody behind you.'
'Ow!!'
Nat-chan twisted her neck too fast. lol
'Kidding.'
'Really, Haru, it hurts.'
'Ok..'
Nat-chan got fed up and continue watching news while rubbing her neck.
'Coffee, im bored.'
'Meow...'
'No i didnt go overboard.'
'Meow!'
'Ok fine. Sorry Nat-chan.'
'You should be, it hurts'
'There. happy?'
'Meow.'

Gone...

2010-08-08T01:41:00.000+08:00

She's gone...
It's really hard to believe
Ever since kindergarten it's been like that...
Whenever i made new friends
And was starting to enjoy the time we spent together....
The next thing u know...gone...
Everything's gone...

I don't know why, but all my best friends end up leaving....
Which really crush me every time...
Feels like i should never have made friends...
But that's not possible right?

I know I'm selfish and all...
But who wouldn't be thinking like that?
' I wished they'd stay here with me...'
But the truth is u just can't stand being hurt...
It keep repeating again and again but there's no way i can get used to it...
at all...

Sylvia, even though you've been difficult sometimes...
But you've also brought us happiness and fun
I'm already starting to miss the days we just sit together during recess,
And made jokes or just babbling about random stuff...
The reason i didn't pick up the phone is because i won't be able to hold back...
I would just break down the moment u start talking...
I'm sorry...
Now you're gone, We have only three person left in the group...
We'll never be complete until we have four...
So could u come back for the end-of-school-year trip?
This is really important to us...not only the three of us, but also the whole class...
3Xin is not complete without u....

I don't Understand

2010-08-05T23:58:00.000+08:00

I just don't understand...
don't understand at all...
Don't get what the problem is...
Have no idea what happened...
Don't know what you're thinking about...

The reason to all this, is because u don't freaking appreciate what i did...
If you don't sound it out nobody would know...
Need something, say it...
Don't like something, shout it out loud so people know what to do!!!
I had enough of things like this...
You're only good at running away
Does that even do any good to you?
I'm sick of it...
Really sick of it....
Stand up straight and face it!!

You may look tough...
But that's just on the outside...
Inside, you're just a coward, hiding, escaping from reality...
You might have reasons for it...
But i call it excuses...

You're not the only one with problems...
Everyone does....
So there's no reason for anybody to run away...
Turning your life into a tragic tale just to get sympathy?
Why is that?
i don't want to admit it but it does effect people around you...

Devastating...

2010-07-26T02:59:00.000+08:00

Wonder if i ever get the things i want...
Its like whenever i want something, it just appears in front of me but the one who possesses it is not me...
I can't stand it... No matter how much i wish for it, it wont come to me...
And what's worse, is that they make no effort at all in getting their hands on them...
"If u work hard enough, anythings possible"
Bullshit...
It's so frustrating... I don't understand why it doesn't apply on me...

Nobody can say that they're really satisfied with whatever they have now...
I'm happy with what I've got but there's something missing...
Something which i wished for so long, something which i can never get...
Things like that never appear often...
And when they finally did, all i can do is watch from afar...

And from another point of view....
Do i posses things that they wished for?
Don't give me shit like i have a proper family and a warm house to live in....
I'm sick of hearing things like that...
Humans are born selfish, we're all born greedy...
There's no reason not to wish for more....

Someday when i go berserk u better watch out...
I nearly killed u and i don't want to do that again...
Don't get on my nerves...

Asdajgha;lekfj !!!!!

2010-06-20T22:42:00.000+08:00

School starts tomorrow...
*sigh....*
earlier today, i try cheering myself up by downloading PVs...
Arashi's PV ofcourse...
and guess what? It worked...but didnt last long..
im really really happy when i finish downlding them...
and im even happier when i was watching them...
when i finish watching it, i was like 幸せ~ ><
especially tht PV for "Monster"
and the quality is good too...unlike what u watch on youtube...
and i only rewatch it for like 3426 times, until i remembered my math homework...
curse u math homework!!
and this is probably the last post this month..
coz school is starting and i wont hv time to wander around the internet anymore..
at least i hv something to look forward to...
Riun, i swear when u come back the 1st thing i'll do when u come over to my house is drag u to my room and force u to watch every arashi thing i have!!!! MUAHAHA!!!
nah just kidding...i'll play with ur guitar 1st..lol...
hope to see u soon!! *evil laugh...*

Nino!!

2010-06-17T23:16:00.000+08:00

Nino　お誕生日おめでとう!!!　

Even though u look like u never age above 17...

(how the hell did u manage to do that?!)
but still!! Once again Happy Birthday~
yay nino!!

Incase u (yes i meant u!!) dont know, he's Ninomiya Kazunari from Arashi
Google it >< now!
or u can just ask me if u want to...

And i havent watch today's ひみつの嵐ちゃん　and VS 嵐．．．
Bet its gonna be really fun coz its nino's birthday...

レモン！！

Gloomy..

2010-06-12T00:30:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was such a lonely day...
Everything was so quite...
There's always something on her mind,
but all she does is shout at us...

Im in the middle of a school holiday, and usually stay in bed till noon...
I woke up when i hear lots of shouting...
Didnt bother to do anything coz if i did evrything will just get worse...
and when the shouting stopped, i went downstairs to eat lunch..
She was crying...
I dont dare to ask anything and just continue with my lunch...
Since im in a really bad mood and all...
I ignore whatever happened and went back into my room...
And i didnt step out of my room till dinner.

Again, the dining table is as empty as usual...
The book i borrowed from the library is propped against my bottle...
Then my brother came down and ate with me...
He poked my book and start bothering me and stopped after awhile coz i ignored him..
She was watching tv when i was washing the dishes...
Seems a bit down to me...
I tried to talk to her but it doesnt work...at all..
Her eyes was kinda red...
Since she's not gonna talk to me there's no point talking to myself either..
Went upstairs again...

About 9:30, I went downstairs to watch the movie we usually enjoy together...
Dad was watching it, and she sat at the back of the living room...
Tried to start a cheerful conversation...but nobody wanted to talk...
I have no idea what's wrong...
Nobody tell me anything about me doing anything wrong...

Sometimes i have these weird dreams about my family breaking apart..
I dont want anything like that to happen..
I dont want to end up like my brother...
He told me that i should just ignore evrything coz its not worth the time or effort...
Maybe im becoming like him..but i dont want to..
Just because of one person and the whole family goes gloomy...
Im really tired of all these...
But there's nothing i can do...

Troublemaker

2010-06-09T01:22:00.000+08:00

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!
Kinda gave me a shock...seriously.. Ohno turn up at the last ep of Tokujo Kabachi...
i was half way through eating my snack, without looking at the monitor because its the short preview before the show starts...i dont wanna spoil it so normally i'll act like i didnt see anything...
then suddenly i heard oh-chan's voice...then i looked up immediately...and OMFG!!!!
and at the end of the drama, after tamura kissed sumiyoshi....its like WOOT O.O!!!!
but the coolness only lasted for about 2 seconds...after that was really funny...
and really, i cant believe i finished the whole thing in maybe 2 and a half day or so...
and its not like watching anime, i dont feel like hurrying at all...maybe the plot is just simple and nice....
the song for this drama is "Troublemaker" also by arashi....
its just so catchy and it stays in ur head for quite some time, and its really jumpy too...
at first it was kinda weird...but after listening it for a few times, u'll get used to it...
wait...thats not quite the right word to use...
Blah! whatevs, u get the idea...
and the PV is...well, unique...i love the way they put shots together to form the whole animation....but the outfit doesnt really match the title...
but no worries, they're still as cute as ever...lol...
love that part when nino pushes ohno away when he was going to the turny thing....
hope he doesnt get hurt....

check it out on youtube!!!! or something...

Rain - Ohno Satoshi

2010-03-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

Hey, Now I Don’t Wanna Give Up.
This Is Only The Beginning!

lol...lyrics from 'Rain' by Oh-chan..
this is the 1st solo i heard from 'One'
ofcourse followed by Nino's 'Himitsu', Aiba's 'Itsuka no summer', Sho's 'yume de ii kara' and Matsujun's 'W/ME'
all of them are nice...but since Rain is the 1st one i listen to...i hv a much deeper impression...
and its closer to the songs i like...but subarashiki sekai is good too...depends on the situation and my feelings....
anyways, im just writing this to kill time...coz its been awhile since i've ever wrote anything...
but please check it out...its really nice...all the song suits the singer...just didnt thought Matsujun would sing something like tht...well he is somewhat the wild type anyways so it still suits him...
there's something call youtube!! yay youtube!! check it out...(the "ONE" concert is AWESOME!!! youtube!!!)

最後の約束

2010-01-29T00:08:00.000+08:00

uwaaa!!! sashiburi minna!!
finally got time to watch tht movie called "saigo no yakusoku" 「最後の約束」starring arashi~~its aired on jan 9th but ofcourse i didnt get to see it....and its a movie...not drama...u know the ones in cinema and stuff...right..and the sub is not available yet...but i watched the raw anyways...and now the subs done and its awesome!! their acting skills is a lot better than back then when they film their 1st drama together... they changed a lot..最後の約束is kinda like their movie for their tenth anniversary....2010 is their 11th year....
and now im half way through the drama called "kimi wa petto" starring Matsujun...
because there's not gonna be class tomorrow due to the new year festival we hv in our school every year.... and then its holiday till monday and back to school to tuesday..
i only hv wee little time to spend, so might as well write something here....since its been such a long time already...and i need study a whole lot if i wanna pass the 2 major exams....
so i guess this is all im gonna write...
its gonna take a long time if i start babbling about rubbish and stuff...

orange...?

episode 8

2009-12-27T16:02:00.000+08:00

HAHA!!! i finished Maou!!!! YATTA!!!!
seriously its awesome...but depressing...evrybody died...><
but its still awesome!!!!
and started watching Uta no Oniisan starring Ohno Satoshi too...
this is much more lively than Maou...and im stuck at episode 8 also due to streaming problem...
somehow it keep stopping at episode 8...like it hd a grudge on me or something...
tsk..i did nth wrong to make episode 8 hate me...

mindboggling...?

butter...

2009-12-07T23:10:00.000+08:00

CATS LOVE BUTTER....

Oh-chan's birthday

2009-11-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

today's Ohno Satoshi's birthday ~
happy birthday oh-chan ^^

Hana Yori Dango?

2009-10-26T19:00:00.000+08:00

i've been watching J-drama lately...and somehow i kinda feel like i've cut my ties with anime...
hey its not my fault...i cant afford dvds and i cant find any website tht doesnt involve with megavideo and veoh..i cant use thm i dont know why...but im still reading manga though...

anyways, so far i've only watched a few...
1.Atashinchi no danshi
2.Yamada tarou monogatari
3.Maou (stopped at episode 8 due to some streaming problem...TT^TT)
4.Hana yori dango
i think thats all..
i cant believe i actually watched hana yori dango....i mean its not a bad drama....
just that im not that kind that watch that kinda drama...
coz the whole thing is about love...basically a love story...
but then i bumped into the manga....and i thought the artsyle is typical shoujo type...and i dont feel like reading it at all....
but then and i remembered there's a drama based on it and Matsumoto Jun is the main chara too....(Yay Matsujun!!)
since i have free time after the finals....so i was like "ahh what the heck~" then i started watching ep1....
lol... and now i've finished both season 1 and 2....didnt take me long coz i have nth eles to do....
well there is...just tht i didnt wanna do it...
it was kinda ok for me....but there's some really touching scene....
and whats amazing about that is the music...bgm...its hikaru utada's "Flavor of Life"
at 1st i dont feel like crying at all....its like "aww poor thing..." but thn the music came up and there goes the tears....
its such a sad song but somehow it has the kinda feeling like u should stay strong....
and plus the scene....there's no way i cannot not cry ><
ahhh~~~its not a bad drama...but i still dun feel like reading the manga after i finish the drama...lol..

Happiness

2009-10-05T22:06:00.001+08:00

Yamada Tarou Monogatari...
yea i finished this 10 eps drama just now...i cried till my eyes are red at the last part...
the whole thing really did make me feel better...i feel so refreshed and all...
and the main chara Tarou, which is also Ninomiya Kazunari from Arashi...well, i kinda have the same feeling when he moved to a castle-like house...
although i keep saying other ppl's house is huge and stuff like "rich Bastard"...Michelle...
but yea, my own house seems to be the best...
well, i dun really have much experience in watching j-drama...(this is only my second one) so i cant really tell how good it is so such..
well, its not as weird as atashinchi no danshi, but still, i feel relaxing when watching this...like how ur sucked into the story and laughing along with them...
and its like when they finish performing air guitar, i clapped along with the audience in the movie....
lol...its like "yay!!!*clap clap clap* uh....ahh what the heck....*continue clapping*
Sho Sakurai is also in the movie, as Tarou's friend...
the OP is also sung by Arashi [HAPPINESS]

edit: since the PV is removed from youtube, i guess i dont hv to put it up here anymore...go youtube to check it out!! youtube!!

arashi - ashita no kioku..

2009-09-28T01:30:00.000+08:00

on the plane, i was listening to the japanese radio...and almost noding to sleep...
thn somthing woke me up... and my family...or maybe the ones that sit close to me..(coz i wake them...)
i was like, ARASHI!!!! ASHITA NO KIOKU!! hey, bro wake up!! its arashi!!
hey...its hard to control the volume of ur voice when ur wearing headphones....i thought i was talking softly but who knows...im not...
anyways...im really really happy when i hear their voice....like once in a video or mago mago arashi...
what makes them feel "hot"? and aiba said when walking into a convienience store and heard arashi's song on the radio or something like that....i forgot...
i think thats the kinda feeling...but its not exactly "hot" well they used the term "atsui" so tht means hot right?

anyways, here's arashi's ashita no kioku (rough translation: tomorrow's memory) PV!!

edit: since the PV is removed from youtube, i guess i dont hv to put it up here anymore...go youtube to check it out!! youtube!!

Rubber Carving

2009-09-02T00:09:00.000+08:00

teacher gave us a really interesting art homework a week ago...
we have to carve(spelling mistake?)something on an eraser...anything is ok..
teacher said we can carve cartoons on it..and she held up lots of facinating work...
we have to stamp it on drawing paper...
and there's one which i love the most...he/she carved lots of disney characters...
u know i love disney characters...
her/his work is really great...the lines are really clear and thin...
he/she carved bambi, piglet, Eeyore, minnie, mickey, and i forgot..
well, i thought it was impossible to carve like that...
but i have to pass it up so there's no harm in trying right?
more like i have no choice...lol..
so i drew a random anime-like girl and started carving...gah...it failed...
and the second one i tried it again....it turned out pretty good...
then i started wondering if it really is that hard....
well, practise make perfect right?
then something flash through my mind...
what eles does disney characters link to?
Kingdom Hearts ofcourse!! what eles?!! (im addicted to it...so deal with it!!)
what eles remind you of kingdom hearts??
Keyblade!!! dude i cant carve that...lol.
who's the owner of the keyblade? SORA!!! thats it!!
sora's hair is really hard to carve...lol...but it was alot of fun!!
sora is a sucess!! im so happy i cant sleep that night...
even my jerk-y older bro said its nice...(he didnt say "nice" he said 'not bad...not bad at all...') lol..
here's a picture of it...im not really good at taking photo...and my camera is suckish...(my aunt gave it to me becoz she doesnt want it anymore...lol..but im grateful to have my own camera...)
well, so there it is....

the 1st one (failed) is not there...well, i dont want to hurt anyone's eyes...lol..
btw, Riku is gonna be the next one...so i hope i dun mess this up...i love riku...><

GAHHAHAHA!!

2009-09-01T00:43:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!!
finished atashinchi no danshi in 2 days!! just finished it a few seconds ago....
leave logic aside, its pretty nice...
well, if u dont look too deep into it or think too much about it....lol..
ahh!! im so happy i dont think i can sleep...

school starts tomorrow and i havent finish my homework yet...lol..
sore ja!!

Atashinchi no Danshi

2009-08-31T02:58:00.000+08:00

when i was serching for sora (frm kingdom hearts) picture on google image(for my art homework...i'll talk about it on my next post...), somehow i manage to bump into Maousama's Blog..

http://maousama.wordpress.com/

(i know the link doesnt work...copy and paste... dun be such lazy bums...><)
and i saw this j-drama that look kinda nice....(i never actually watched one before...) and when im reading through the description...
i saw this...

and this...

dont you think that that guy...1st from the left...looks kinda like Mamo?
i was like WTF??!! maji???
im pretty sure that he's as tall as mamo...and his hairstyle...
thn i went to watch it...
its really nice....im not gonna spoil anything...so watch it for urself~
(there's link at Maousama's blog...so visit her blog to watch it...)
but it turned out that its not mamo...lol...
but im glad i found it...coz its really nice ^^
so do me a favour and check it out ne?
yoroshiku!!

I Dont Want

2009-08-30T02:34:00.000+08:00

lol..downloaded Vocaloid - Kaito's "Cantarella"
its so nice ^^

Vocaloids are just amazing...
check out the others too...^^
Hatsune Miku's "Melt" and "world is mine" is recomended...

Missing you...

2009-08-22T00:52:00.001+08:00

she was sitting on a tree branch of the tree we used to climb...
"hey Ren! what'cha doing up there?"
she glance down at me and said, "the night is beautiful.."
its true, we used to sit on that tree branch together back then...
looking at the night stars and complaining about the mosquito bites...
"i've been searching all over for you! how can u be on a tree during the party?!"
she paused for a while and patted the seat beside her...
"it'll break if we both sit on it.." silly Ren..
she pointed to a higher branch "then u sit on the higher one.."
"fine.."

Project

2009-08-21T05:33:00.000+08:00

project project project!!!
all these are driving me nuts!!!
science project! geography project! history project! music project!
GAH!!!!
and the stupid exams!! why do P.E even NEED exams?!!!
GAHHHH!!!GAHHHHH!!!!GAAAAAHAHHHH!!!

....

2009-08-17T21:26:00.001+08:00

im sorry im sorry im sorry....
i didnt meant for something like this to happen...
i wasnt thinking right...
i didnt know that something like this would have happen....
im so so so sorry...
i didnt meant something like this to happen....
sorry i ruin you birthday...
i didnt know...
i reallly didnt...
i wasnt thinking right....
im feeling so guilty right now...
i've made the whole family miserable...
sorry my existence is such trouble to u guys...
maybe it would have been better to die....
i keep causing prob;ems like this...
all i wanna do is let out evrything.....
but i certainly didnt think straight...
i was just so mad...i didnt know...
im so so so sorry...
i would rather have died if i know something like this will happen...
im so sorry...
i really really really feel really guilty about the whole thing...
i apologize for evrything...
sorry for wrecking the whole thing....
i really just want to feel better since there's nobody to talk to and keeping it to myself is so hard...
i even make dad mad and i dont know how to face you right now...
i dont know how to apologize and i feel really bad...honest...
i wont know what to do...
now i dont know what to do...
i need help ...
i need someone to talk to...
please...
i dont know what to do...
forgive me...
please forgive me...
im just so stress out and i need to let it out somehow and i just dont know how...
im sorry...
i promise that i wont do something like that....
sorry i made dad hit you so hard, im sorry i made dad yell at you like that...
im sorry i make any of you feel upset....
im sorry for wrecking your birthday mom...im sorry for making you cry...
im sorry i involve too many of my emotions....im sorry i ruin all of your day...
i really am sorry...
i wont forgive myself if i ever do that again...
i wont forget this day and hope to remember not to repeat the same mistake again...
im know im wrong...and i dont know how to face you guys either....
im sorry....i really am..
i'll try evrything i can to make up to you guys....
i'll try to control my emotions more...
im really sorry...

Miyano Mamoru - J★S

2009-08-02T17:17:00.000+08:00

i havent on the computer for like a whole month(i think...)
so i dun care anymore...i cant take it anymore...
i dun care what happen to my homework i just want to on the computer today!!!
i miss mamo sooooo much...he just released his 3rd simgle....
his pv is sooooo cute!!!!
seriously!! its a crime to be so cute even though he's a guy!!
i watched the PV so many times and i still didnt get tired of it...
i like the way he smile sooo much!!! and also the way he dance...

and i cant find the romanji lyrics of this song....only found kanji....and i wanna sing it so badly...
therefore translate ALMOST all of it into romanji...
although its really crappy but i feel the satisfaction...well, thx to the notes riun gave me last time...^^
arigatou gozaimasu!!!

wild dogs...

2009-06-08T22:17:00.000+08:00

got chased by 4 wild dogs when im riding on a bike near my grandma's house....bang into a pole infront of a crowd of people...stupid dogs...made me a laughing stock infront of the crowd....and im already on a very embarrasing bike...there's not enough bike there....and the only bike i can ride is my grandpa's....bike...as in bicyle....stupid dogs!!! i swear if u let me see you again im gonna kill u with a real bike!! as in motorcycle....
i wanted to ride on one....even a 11 year old kid get to ride!! and he's shorter thn me....yea...i got laughed when i say i cant ride a bike....tsk..

Kingdom Hearts

2009-06-06T08:21:00.000+08:00

well, i never actually played it before....coz i dun hv a PS2...
but im going to....soon...somwhow....somewhere...TT^TT
anyways, im sooo into Kingdom Hearts lateley....especially the music...
>.<~ X3 nyuu.....~

anyways, the opening is REALLY nice!! RIKU...kyaa~(riku's voice in jap version is mamo's) X3...

and the songs are soo nice....
Dearly Beloved

Missing You...

Roxas's theme...

there's alot more....too troublesome putting it here...lolz..
plz visit www.youtube.com for more cool vids!! or any other webby tht is cool...
COOL!!!

Ackmed...

2009-05-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

Gahahahah!!!! this is killing me!!

2009-05-13T16:35:00.001+08:00

i got my pc fixed~ finaally hv acess to the internet...although my pc's fine...but the keyboard is as anoying as ever....stupid malfunctioning keyboard...though u still can use it...jz vry vry anoying when it suddenly stop working for a few seconds or a few minutes....
anyway mamo released his 1st album...[Break!] i love it when he say : Break !
he have this japanses accent it sounded like "bureku" so cute!!
i love his song espcially the new one "Be"
he look soooo good when he dance...coz he's really tall and also hv a good figure...
KYAAA~~

Mamo - Be

GAHHHHHKKKKK!!!!!

2009-04-05T18:43:00.000+08:00

sometimes i get really jealous at those who are really great in both drawing and painting...
im not bad in drawing....but i suck at painting...
i know i can improve if i hv the time to practise...
but i dont....so i really envy those who's really great at painting...

a few days ago, during art class...teacher hold up our art work one by one to point out the mistakes...and there's a few very good ones...
after tht we take back our painting ...there's one painting tht i really like...and i complimented the girl and said i really like her painting...thn we chat abit...she said her parents and her sister often helps with her painting and always giving her advise...and she pointed out where her mom helps her to paint and which character her sister helps her to draw...
and i asked, " ur whole family is really good at art and stuff?" the answer i get is "yeap, pretty much".... thn she went back to her own seat....

at tht moment i felt like i wanna crush her skul... i didnt ofcourse....
it'll be so nice if i can be like her...
but in my family, my brother and me is the only one tht's intrested in stuff like this...so
the only one tht can give me advise on this is him...
but he never gv a damn bout it...all he does is say how bad my painting is and never gave any useful advise on it....
he gave me "advise" like " u shudnt use tht colour in the 1st place" " ur not supose to paint like tht!!!" "bug off" "get lost!! " "shut the *beep* up!!!!"
if there's nobody to help me with this thn i hv to practise more myself to improve....
but if i did there's no time for homework....if its drawing, i can practise in school during recess....but there's always flies around ...when they see me drawing and sat beside me and STARE at me drawing....how the hell can i draw like tht????

i really wanna sit in one of the school's corner and draw...but if i get seen by others they'll think im nuts....sitting out in the hot sun and not the air-conditioned classroom...
even if i manage to get my drawing to improve like tht , i cant possibly paint in school!!
i wish i could get transfered to another school and concentrate on my drawings there...
there's not much homework in other schools....
but there's stuff i wanan learn in this school...thts why i enroled into tht school...
i dont know wat to do....

April

2009-04-01T23:18:00.000+08:00

april....APRIL FOOL!!!!
nth special about it...
im jz taking a break from the test ^^
ahaha~
ur a fool...FOOL I TELL YOU!!!! FOOOOOL!!!!!

april fool?
.....
its cold in here...
this is pathethic..

ai wo utau yori ore ni oborero...

2009-03-20T18:26:00.000+08:00

Ai wo utau yori ore ni oborero

I stumble on this manga a few days ago....
the cover looks nice huh?
well, i dont have a habbit of reading the sumary before i read the manga...
and thus...there's the powerpuff girls... ahh...nvm..
anyways, i started to read...its about this akira person wanna join a band...ok...the art is nice and i like the opening...
at 1st i thought akira's a girl...and also wondering why does she hv a guys name...thn moving on, the band looks cool...5 bishies with really cool outfit...
...
....
.....
......
wait...
....
ok, im not surprize tht akira turned out to be a guy...
....
thn one of the "guy" said
"NO WAY A GUY'S JOINING AN ALL GIRLS BAND!!!!!"
....
this....is just so wrong...
and i thought i was imagining things...i thought it was jz a mistake...so i continue...
and evrything turn out too confusing...
and finally i take a look at the genre...
gender bender....
i stared at the screen for a few seconds thn i gone crazy...
seriously...if u see 5 bishes on the street and suddenly they shouted out tht they're girls...
they're outfit are realy cool too...
wat a waste....><

monkey!

2009-02-07T02:33:00.000+08:00

ignore the title..anyways, long time no see bloggy-chan!!
i hv nth much to write coz there nth special happening....
and im not a good writer also...bad english..ahaha...

and more monkeys....with socks for ears...

...

oh god...its sick and wrong...

2008-12-13T00:50:00.001+08:00

clannad after story is sooo sad...i cried sooo many times...wuaaa!!!

i rewatched clannad too....i felt sorry for fuko-chan....

i wanna dwnld it...and the art is soo nice...i wish i hd played the game....but its in japanses...

though i think i can find the english patch..but its too troublesome...and plus there's no more space in my pc...ahahaha...too much rubbish i think...

yes, im writing this thing because im bored...i've finished sooo many mangas in a day...mostly yaoi though...=X

i didnt write this thing for sometime...i get bored easily if its not anime-related stuff....

anyways, i've been practising piano quite alot...but not the songs my teacher gave me...

i found the piano version of this song called "god knows" by Aya Hirano...its from Suzumiya haruhi no yuutsu FYI...ppl who watch it shud know...this song is super nice!!! its tough...but i manage to play abit of it....its still not perfect, but i know i can play it perfectly...someday...ahah!!

Aya Hirano is also quite cool...there's this sang called "hide and seek" from death note i think...she and miyano mamoru sang this one...mamo-chan is the seiryuu of light yagami and aya-chan is the seiryuu of one of the main girl character wich i forgot the name....(gomen ne...)so its like them singing together....and aya-chan is also the seiryuu of haruhi suzimiya... and there's more...ofcousre...though im not gonna list it out...its troublesome~~~~

lets see a picture of aya-chan~~ ^^

aya hirano with long hair...cool~~

aya hirano with short haircut!! cute!!

on/off - twins!!!!

2008-12-13T00:41:00.000+08:00

Vampire Knight Guilty OP (Rinne ~Rondo~ ) by on/off

I went to search for this singer call "on/off" (cause i think the song is nice and the name sounded intresting...)
and guess wat i saw...they are twins~!!!! like ichiru and zero kiryuu!!!! KYAA~ ><
anyway they look quite ok...watched their MV for Futatsu no Kodou to Akai Tsumi (OP for vampire knight...) and Rinne ~Rondo~ (vampire kn ight guilty's OP)
i like both songs, but the MV of Futatsu no Kodou to Akai Tsumi is nicer i think...
anyways...still, i like mamo-chan better...ahahah...*swt*

Miyano Mamoru !!!

2008-10-21T22:02:00.000+08:00

this is the 1st time i ever liked a person, i mean a real life person.... not like like, jz like...i mean idol kinda like....or like how i like anime like...u get the idea...

im always stick with anime, but this time its really diffrent.....

i was sooo amazed by Miyano-san's voice (wich is tamaki's seiryuu),

thn i started to search for his profiles and pictures,
to my suprise, Miyano-san is such a good lookin guy!!!

not tht i didnt expect this, but i didnt know he's THAT good lookin~

at 1st it was just his voice, and thn his look, and thn his happy-go-lucky personality, (as least i think...heh..)

now im totally crazy bout this~

i told E wen (my fren...duh~) and she agreed tht he hv a good figure too,

he could have been a model ~~ >.<

i saw his video on youtube too, and there's one thts he's takin pictures with a dog called koko-chan

omg!! he and the dog is just soooo cute!!!!! i just wanna hug thm till they burst ~~ (omg tht scary...)

and his smilling face is so....soo....charming!! he can blind u with his smile....

and ofcourse he looks cool even though he's not smiling...

KYAAAA~~~

his songs are amazing too, he is a singer, an actor, and also a seiryuu!! how cool is tht!!

anyways, i love his songs~ my 1st Miyano-san's song is tamaki's chara song "guilty beauty love"

it suits tamaki's personality perfectly!! when i 1st listen to it i was like :" awesome !!! omg who sang this song???? this is just amazing!!! wait..who exactly is tamaki's seiryuu?"

i was already amzed by his voice when i watched ouran, and thn found out he actually sings, and thn there's where it starts....this crazy Mamo-chan thingy...

his look is jz as good as his voice >< *squeel*

he's the seiryuu of the folowing characters:

Suou Tamaki - Ouran High School Host Club

Light Yagami - Death Note

Riku - Kingdom Hearts

The Death Kid - Soul Eater

Haruka-sensei - Gakuen Alice

Sakuraba - Eyeshield 21

Zero Kiryuu - Vampire knight

Ichiru Kiryuu - Vampire knight

Delchias von Wincott - Kyou Kara Maou

......lots more k..

and btw, here's his pic~

cool eh?

2008-10-07T21:22:00.000+08:00

this is the 1st day of THE exam...school exam....and also the final exam...

we will all go through this together...i'd always thought tht the result is not important....

i take it back...the result IS important...it goes into the report card and we hv to study to get to another level like goin up to form 2..

though mayb some of u guys dun hv to bother how the result will b , yea coz u guys are like ...genius... i dunno how u guys get so damn high marks...how do u guys study anyway?? photographic memories???

ok anyway...we're going for a battle....so all we hv to do is kill the opponent b4 they kill us...

yea....easy talk than done....

garh...enough of this crap....

gotta go~

stress....

2008-09-24T00:37:00.000+08:00

omg...im so stressed out...like always...

i dont know wat to do...i shouted out ofcourse ( with the pillow on my face) and also cried ..

but i know it doesnt make things better.....

normally , u can say tht im carefree...and i dont take stuff seriously....

but sometimes i get really really depressed about the homework and stuff...i cant do other stuff tht im actually intrested in and hv to stuck with the damn homework...loads or f***king homework....

i dun think its my parents coz they didnt gv me much presure

its jz me, ...but if compare to those who got 7a's for their UPSR, my problems are jz teenie weenie to them...

and result doesnt really bother me. as long as i dont fail the test thn im ok with it..

but i still dun get it....Y M I SO DAMN STRESSED OUT??!!!!!

i dont know y m i like this...once this thing starts and i'll be non-stop crying for like more thn 15 mins...

i know its a waste of time....but i jz cant stop....weird huh...

and plus the test are coming....if im like this now i dont know how m i gonna go through the PMR or the SPM exam....

oh god....how m i gonna live through this...

thts it...im hopeless....

ok..although i dun hv the mood to laugh now....but still...

=.=

2008-09-10T21:02:00.000+08:00

mood: =.= (bored)

9.00 p.m.
another boring day....another boring day....another boring BORING day....
stoopid boring day.....so bored...there's nth to do...
sitting infront of the pc...dun feel like doin anything....(typin this doesnt count)
yaoi....no yaoi mangas....no books to read....
dun feel like doin my homework....dun feel like flipping the text book...
dun feel like sleeping....dun feel like eating? (i jz finish my dinner...)
dun feel like painting....dun feel like drawing....

9.11 p.m.
doodling on my homework.....dwinky.....doodling lots of dwinky....
wats dwinky? im not sure of it myself....its a round thingy..with eyes and a mouth...
diffrent kind of eyes n mouth....
there's dwinky 1, dwinky 2, dwinky 3, dwinky dwinky 4.5, ..... dwinky 8.5
there's also shishio makoto (from rurouni kenshin) - dwinky version....
kenshin (also from rurouni kenshin...duh~) - dwinky version....
and my brothers are also dwinkys....=.=

9.48 p.m.
hmmm...finished my homework...
i wonder how will teacher react when she sees dwinkys around my work....
ahh~ my cute little dwinkys....
oh wait....i stil hv one more homework left...art....paint...urgh..no mood to paint now...=.=

i'll stop here..lazy to write the rest of it...
anyways....

canada...omg this is too long...

2008-09-04T22:04:00.000+08:00

ahh~ long time no c ne bloggy-chan!!

lolz..

my friend moved to canada just yesterday, and im missing her already..T.T

she sat beside me in class, and we just get to know each other lately....

now the seat beside me is empty and its kinda lonely...

there's no one for me to talk to when im bored of listening to the teacher babling...

there's no one for me to make fun of during lessons...

threre's no one for me to talk about anime and mangas in class....

(she's the only one i can talk to when it come to stuff like anime...T.T others dont know wat m i talkin about....)

she always boast about moving to canada (didnt meant it in a bad way..)....although i act like im irritated...but the truth is i like to listen to wat she said bout it....well..sumtimes i do get a little irritated, coz i really envy her =.=

i wonder if she'll forget me when she meet new friends there...i hope she'll not...lolz..

im now leaning how to paint, and im starting with scenery...she said the scenery there is reallly nice...so i made her create a blog (its still empty now tho....=.=) and post all the pictures there...

hope she remembers it...or not i'll really kill her if she didnt...jk jk i wonder how i do tht too..

there's this girl tht sits behind me....she missed her too... alot.. she always said how nice if she can move there with her... she's really intrested in other countries...(watever those contries r...^^")

now she's currently learning french...or is it italian....i dunno..forgot...*swt*

she hv a big dream...tht is to move to "the watever country" she's been talkin bout...

as for me its always japan...^^ otaku zone!!! (im not an otaku...yet!! jk jk)

if miss canada girl reads this , plz post a comment of jz inform me ne~

miss ya~ muaxx!! (urgh...)

RANDOM PICTURE TIME!!!!

this time its the....*drumroll*

OURAN HIGH SCHOOL HOST CLUB!!!!!

hmm~ i just love the anime...^^

fave character: -Suou Tamaki

-Ootori Kyouya

-Hitachiin kaoru

-Hitachiin Hikaru

Summary:

Haruhi Fujioka is a scholarship student at Ouran High School, a fictional school located in Bunkyō, Tokyo. Because of the superlative cost of the school uniform, Haruhi resorts to wearing long slacks, polo shirts and a vest. Combined with her large glasses and tousled short hair, Haruhi's look causes her to be confused for a boy.

Looking for a quiet place to study, Haruhi stumbles upon the Third Music Room, the working place of the Ouran Host Club, a group of six attractive male students (Takashi "Mori", Mitsukuni "Honey", Kaoru and Hikaru, Tamaki, and Kyouya) who spend their time charming and entertaining the school's girls for profit. During their first meeting, Haruhi accidentally knocks over a vase valued at ¥8,000,000, estimated to be $80,000.

In order to pay off the large debt, Haruhi is employed as the club's "dog" and constantly ordered to do menial tasks like serving food or cleaning up. The Club president, without knowing she is really a girl, promotes Haruhi to "host" as soon as he discovers her potential. Even after the truth comes out in the Club, Haruhi continues the charade and is allowed to pay off the rest of her debt working as a host; provided she conceals her true identity/gender from the customers.

引用小白的：演习...演戏 lolz...

2008-08-29T01:10:00.000+08:00

刚刚看了小白的blog..

在她blog里有提到我拉~就是那个Ritsu 啦！^^

讲起来，我也觉得我们很有缘咧！哈哈!

然后是防火演习拉...

我懒得写酱多。。去看看小白的blog 吧~

http://axela-nothing.blogspot.com/应该没有错...

下一个也是讲演戏的啦...

番茄妈妈（白妈妈）很好笑哦！她本来都有点sot sot 的，演起戏来更可爱~

唐爸爸（白爸爸）那一幕最爽啦！啪！一声拍桌子很yeng以下的咯。。哈哈~

接下来就是小白咯！演技真得很好！要是不懂的话还以为她哭呢！其实有没有哭不知道啦！连她自己都不知道我怎么知道？=.=

然后是祖儿（小黑）她跟小白配合到很好！讲是班花，但她看起来很勇一下咯。。^^"

接着是之杰。最喜欢还是他讲得最后一个字-- “呸！”

过后就是班长。竟然认错ah girl！哈哈！！她很可爱以下的咯！

Y.Q & Amanda 就是旁白咯。可是讲话好像要死不死酱的咯。。。

sry la Y.Q & Amanda! heh heh..

ok! "random picture" 这一项就用回英文。

"yo! 2 bottles of milk please!"

kawaii deshou? its from http://www.deviantart.com/

i watch too many users and forgot who i get it from..heh heh..

anyways, i'll edit if i remember or found whose this pic's owner.

Nyan~

=.= Finally...

2008-08-28T01:09:00.000+08:00

And yes...im talking about the piano test...its over...OVER!!!hahaha phew!! it was kinda excited and kinda scary back thn.

Its raining that day, and we're in the hotel..with air-conditioner...and its DAMN cold...my fingers freezed..(i dun like the cold...=.=, jz cant stand it x_x ) i was called out from the waiting room, and i walked to the examination room feeling quite nervous. I waited my friend to finish her exam (she's the one b4 me...and FYI the one after me is also my friend ^^ ) and finally she came out...lookin quite depressed though...she smiled at me and patted my shoulder, i replied her smiled and went into the examination room...

My fingers are still quite cold, i cant play the piano with cold fingers...and plus the keyboard is cold too...=.= i did not play well, gomen ne sensei....if i fail tht is..XD i've tried, but i cant play it well...i dont know if its bcoz im cold or the fact tht im abit nervous...mayb both..XD. oh well...wats done is done...no point in crying over spilled milk right...(did i get tht rite...it sounded wired....my english is not that good^^")

Ahh~ its high time i get to relex myself on the piano...hahas..sensei..u better not make me go though any stress until the nxt examination or not u noe wat'll happen ^^ ne?

Yoshi!! random picture time!! this time its Kou Shuurei from saiunkoku monogatari !! i found it in somebody's CR profile...sry..i didnt meant to steal it =x

www.crunchyroll.com

after the holiday...

2008-08-25T22:42:00.000+08:00

ok...so the one week holiday is over....and im stuck with the schoolings again...dont feel like getting up so early in the morning....=.=

tomorrow's my piano test..(practical) dun hv to go to school for a day....but to be honest..i'd rather sleep in class(im not a delinquent...yet..XD) thn to practise the whole day just for that test that only took a few minutes...ahh~ so troublesome...

today there's supose to be a PE test...but too bad i didnt bring my PE shirt...so i ended up sitting aside with nth to do...im quite fond of sports...but too bad im not too good at it...XD i guess its a little above average compare to my class...well..at least a teenie bit only.

so i guess i'll stop here...there's not much to write anyway...nth special happend today...=.= wat a boring life i would say (hey, it rythmes ^^)...hahas..jk jk..

ok...here's another random picture ...

reading thru the pages and i jz found it really nice and saved it....its from www.mangafox.com - brother x brother (*sqeual!!* the art is soooo nice!!!!) its a yaoi manga with a vry good storyline... ^^check it out! if u like yaoi that is...

>< first time writting a blog...

2008-08-23T20:01:00.000+08:00

erm....i don't really know how to sart this...ahaha..well...lolz..=.=

ok then...the piano test is comin...and i keep practising like crazy, which really REALLY took my time..

i dont have the time to watch any anime this holiday...which totally sucks..

and u know wat..i've been stuck at rurouni kenshin ep 73 for weeks now...and i still have no time to watch...although writing this is also taking time...but i hv to go later anyway(help with the chores)....no point in watching it in this short time..i wouldnt able to enjoy myself this little time with it...>.<>

the stupid piano thing is really driving me crazy...i used to like it...(when i was little...) but now it just pisses me off...bcoz of the tests..if there's tests...there's stress...if there's stress...then im goin nuts...

oh im hungry...*grab a glass * blood anyone? *drinks~* ><